Angel's Voice

I  bought 2 song albums in Spore last week. One is collection of Jazz and another one is Angel's Voice and now i love to listen to Angel voice's album every night.. it eases my mind =) and at the same time i can practice my voice =) ..
so, i was attracted to this song.. Love Theme From Cinema Paradiso by Giorgia Fumanti. The song is in Italian btw.. and like it =D

Se tu fossi nei miei occhi per un giorno

Vedresti la bellezza che piena d'allegria

Io trovo dentro gli occhi tuoi

Ignaro se magia o realta

Se tu fossi nel mio cuore per un giorno

Potresti avere un'idea

Di cio che sento io

Quando mi abbracci forte a te

E petto a petto, noi

Respiriamo insieme

Protagonista del tuo amor

Non so se sia magia o realta

Se tu fossi nella mia anima un giorno

Sapresti cosa sento in me

Che m'innamorai

Da quell'istante insieme a te

E cio che provo e

Solamente amore

Blessings,

NANA

speaking mind

“Life is difficult for everyone. We all have stress and we all need someone in our lives that we can lean on. Never think that you cannot talk to someone because they have problems to or that your friend or loved one would be better off without you or your problems. You’ll soon find out that they need you just as much as you need them.”

—	Joshua Hartzell

“There was nothing left to see. It happened and it was impossible and beautiful and then it ended before it even really began, leaving nothing behind but secrets and broken hearts.” — Sarah Ockler (Twenty Boy Summer)  “Lily: “I can never go backwards. I can only go forward.” Robin: “No, you’re wrong. You can go anywhere. The question is, where do you want to go?” — How I Met Your Mother  “I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent.” — Marilyn Monroe “It is only my memory that holds me here. Time, let me vanish. Then what we separate by our very presence can come together.” — Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler’s Wife    “So many people enter and leave your life! Hundreds of thousands of people! You have to keep the door open so they can come in! But it also means you have to let them go!” — Mr. Black, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer  “I have decided to stick with love, hate is too great a burden to bear.” — Martin Luther King Jr.

Life could be a dream, sweet heart

Konichiwa.... hai guys, sorry for not updating my blog.. kinda lazy to write, and i was not here for almost a week...

soo... a lot of things had happened actually..  yah.. farewell party, scherzo last gathering at lembur kuring, joshua departed (the first personil left), me going to spore and had a nice vacation until last saturday..
Sighh... i didn't want to come back here honestly.. i want to stay there and forget everything.. but no.. i can't run away from my responsibility. A bunch of task were in front of me after i came back here and i felt so ughhh.. can't described it. >.<. I tried not to make them as my burden, and saw them as chances. Hope i can do this! Well, this is my first time doing the drama, and i don't have any experiences in it. I typed the script, and now i need to find the suitable role for my project. this is difficult anyway. My fellowship lacked of people and i didn't know what to do. I just pray and hope that He can help me. I am so helpless now. :(.  Aaaaaaaaaa..... i think too much right now.. hais..

i have new pet now.. a little bird.. hope she can be like chip2.. my lost bird...  =)



Blessings,
NANA

When life seems unfair....

Pretty glad during afternoon, till night comes... It's hard to delete this... i'm trying so hard.. so hard that i want to cry aloud... =(. it seems like i can't start here... i lost hope here...
anyway, pedi and meni today because tomorrow is the day... the farewell party. =P. Hope i can enjoy it.. *sigh...
Good news for today issss..... I PASSEDDDDDDDDD! WHEEEEEEEEEEE.....!!! all of my classmates too! Wwhhhhheeeeeeeeeeee.....

practicing with my DSLR again.. please give me any comments

Maroon... =D

dunno if it matches with my gown tomorrow >.<

thanks to my autie for accompanying me =D

randomrandomrandom

ocay, bye... hoping for a better tomorrow.. =)


Blessings,
NANA

should i call this a j...?

negative thoughts came along again in this middle of night.
what i have now is loneliness...
struggling with myself,
how to erase every hatred and jealousy
will you ever understand?
sometimes you need to differentiate
when is the time to be serious
and when is the time for joking
thank you

 

it is not wrong to be lonely sometimes, right?

Blessings,

NANA

how you die...

today almost became a bad day for me if i didn't do anything. Well, i think i should keep myself busy all the time. IF i don't do that, i will fantasize a lot, bad feelings will come, random thought will fill my mind, and my mood will be very very bad. *sigh. I lost my spirit to run today and do some exercises too. I don't know why. and this morning, when i woke up, i felt really tired and terribly sleepy. Geezz... weird...
So, i spent my day watching Mozart, reading book "elijah" and practicing at chamber. I was startled when i saw how Mozart died, but yet, his works were amazing, stunning, and marvelous. hmmm hmmm... well, he is famous now. =D. i wonder how i will die. hmmm... i hope i can rest in peace and go back to Father's arm. Die during my sleep? i don't want to die because of illness, no no no, absolutely no. however, i can't choose. That's His business, i don't have any right.

and during my practice at chamber, what a coincidence! my dancing partner is him again! hahaaa... i never thought i will pair up with him again. In the last year concert, his was my partner too! LOL! =D. hope we can cooperate well then. hihihi..



Blessings,
NANA

Sensitive, yes I am way too sensitive

I don't know what is happening to me these days. Happy? yes. Sad? No, um sometimes. But this is not the sad feeling. Yesterday i told you that i felt unwell, yes, it happened until now. Maybe i think too much? I sensed that something is not right, something should not be this way. I can't stop thinking about this, but then, i tried to stop it. I know i think too much and my imagination went beyond control. *sigh. I just missed the old times, when we were together, sitting there, chatting jubilantly, drinking starbucks, or enjoying the music. =(. I thought we will be closer seeing that we were going to separate and walk our own paths,  but I expect too much that i ended up disappointed. T.T.Okay, that's all, i don't want that thing ruin me again, i had enough and i wanted to enjoy my last days here. =D

Went to Sun with my family and test food and Dome. I also went to see coming-soon cafe, "the breeks" and i was so excited. =D. Bought a pair of crocs wedges and a dress again with mommy and sister. =D.

Sweet! I just can't stand the brownies. >.<

I know it's turquoise blue again. =P. Just a coincidence.

Yeah, i know i am bad at photography. =P. Trying to learn heree... =D

Blessings,
NANA

What's wrong?

Have been working out since morning. The weather is still intolerable today. Sweat a lot. I need to lose some weights.  i just can't understand why people can lost their weight easily but i can't do that, even though i have done a lot of exercise for almost 2 weeks???? Ugh.. please.. just 2 kg and i will be satisfied... +.+"



Regards,
NANA

Why believe?

Nice day today =D, but still the sun didn't show any mercy at all. Whew... out for almost a day with Loui, Ken and Tom. I supposed to go to school for those photos but i ended up going out with them. At first, we wanted to buy some presents for the winner of the best slogans, best logo, and best class costume, but after a while we decided to watch movie to spend our time rather than doing nothing at home. =P. Guess what.. we watched paranormal activity 2 and i screamed for.. er.. i didn't count. Too scary and most of the movie shocked us. our popcorn was thrown by Loui because she was startled by the sound. =P. I laughed at her. Too funny. XD. well, love the movie though. i dunno if i can sleep tonight. =.=". haissssss..
I didn't feel really well at night. i dunno what's the cause. Maybe because of the movie? or because i sport too much. hope i will get well soon. T.T

 re-read this book tonight cause i'm going to write a drama script based on his story. having difficulty writing it. =(. hope i can write according to the main point. >.<

Blessings,

NANA

Avoiding

Happy Monday =). sorry for not updating my blog for 2 days... i was busy preparing those handicrafts for mother's day event in youth. Finally it was over although lack of time. =D.

So, on last Saturday i went to tjong a fie's house. Hohoho... should go there before i leave. turned out that some of my friends didn't want to go there because they were afraid of ghost. Well, the house was kinda scary and some rumors said that it was haunted. =p. some photos here were taken by my phones and i was so clumsy that i forgot to change my lens. graooorrrr....

weather in medan is freaking hot these days. The sun is shining so bright and the heat is pretty intense. That's why i spent most of my days in my room cause the temperature was so high that i could feel like i was in Arab. =.=". If i went our from my room, i would start to sweat and i hated it.

went to Sun today and bought a dress... turquoise blue! love it. =D. and my aunt suggested me to buy these shoes, but haven't buy it yet.. =p.

what do you think? should buy it or not? =D

Blessings,
NANA

inner healing

I went to a seminar today =) and i got a lot of blessings. I was glad i can attend this seminar and i didn't regret it at all. I was healed. All of my anger, hatred were erased. Maybe i have said that i forgave people, but the truth was i didn't forget it, i just hid it and until the point i can't stand it anymore, i will explode.
What i learned today is i should not suppress, repress, explode my pain. We heal our pain not by suppressing but, by expressing. Yes, it is true i don't express it. I hid it. I save it all for myself and it hurts. No wonder why i was not myself these days. I was entangled by those pain.
Anyway, i am quite relieved now. All of my burdens have been taken away. =). I really forgive now and maybe, i will try to forget and i will not mention their mistakes.

The fact is people will keep hurting you, no matter what because it is LIFE and it is normal. =). cheers.

a verse i got today to strengthen you...

Matthew 24 :12-13

because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

example : 愛  >>> 爱  do you realize that "心" is missing?

Be strong guys... endure everything until that day come....



Blessings,
NANA

like a fish in the sea

i feel so tired with it. I tried everything i can, but people will never appreciate it. *chuckle. take me for granted? =(.  fine then.. Maybe i will face a lot more in the future. like papa said, "the problem you face now is nothing compared to the one you will encounter in the future." i guess, i really should be ready, huh?

Fyi, i'm not faking. this is me. I'm not trying to be a kind person, but who wants to be a bad girl anyway? I can't be mad at you. I want to but i can't and i really don't know why. what i can do is keep all the anger i have towards you and it will vanquish suddenly. I need to withstand it. i need to learn what is it like to love someone even though they are not lovable? i don't know how long i can endure this pain. =(

"sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy is always the most lonely person, so never leave them alone because they will never say they need you."

Blessings,

NANA

Somehow, i suddenly fall in love with

*sigh.. i don't know why recently, i missed everything about music. Maybe after i watched those anime, i realized my passion for it. I love everything that is related to music, like broadway, opera, orchestra, or choir. I got goosebump everytime i saw the performance. sometimes, i want to cry if the performance was really good even it was not touching at all. i didn't know why until i ask my papa. He said that i had the passion in it.
Yes, i wished my life revolved around music. I wish i can master every musical instrument. I regretted that i didn't practice my piano seriously. Maybe it was because of my impatience. I was lazy to practice. =(. anyway, what can i do now is improve my singing. I love to sing though. =). When i get there, hope i can find a good teacher. I will take some music courses too if i have the chance. learn new instruments... =D. i just can't wait! Yattaaa...>.<
well, today i went to clinic to take blood sample. luckily, it was not as painful as i thought it was. =D.
andd... i went back practicing again in Chamber choir. I had so much fun after being inactive for almost a month. I'm glad that i can practice my voice again because it seems like my voice quality has been decreasing. T.T.  lalalalalaaa... i'm so in love with Ave maria noww..... =p


Blessings,
NANA

Kek Sim

I'm sooooooooooo... sigh sigh sigh... i don't know what to do anymore...
I lost all my junior high school photos... all of them. Blame those 2 kids for not taking care of my laptop. Everything is inside that laptop. i remembered that i just moved everything from my hard disk to that laptop because my hard disk didn't have enough space. Gaaaaaaaaaahhh... my last hope is my father's hard disk. Hope that i can find it there. I don't know what should i do if those photos really vanished.. Those.. are PRECIOUS. yes, indeed very precious. =(. Lot of memory there. I'm so desperate now... T.T

Anyways, i made some cupcakes for the first time today with Loui. =D. failed on the icing though, but the cake itself tasted so good. =P. I will do better next time. Hihihihi... so happy.

ah.. I only took one picture of the cupcakes with my phone.

A for Anita, L for Loui, N for Nata =P

Sorry for the decoration.. i know it looks bad.=D.

Hooo.. Something unique happened today. People were complaining about the water from this morning. When i read my TL on twitter, their homes had no water at all. They couldn't take a bath. I'm so grateful that my house didn't have this problem. phewww... thanks God. I dunno what will happen if there was no water at all in my house. Geezz.. cause a lot of problem i think. that's all for today! Jannaa...

Blessings,

NaNa

Fantasia

Spending my time mostly watching the anime.. I am so addicted with it.. The name of the anime is "La Corda d'Oro". 

Everything is about music here... classical.. Schubert, chopin, mozart, sonata, canon.. Suitable for people who are passionate in music

She plays clarinet

He plays cello. i can't stand his innocent face >.<

He plays flute. Many girls adore him but i don't like him very much. =p. Somehow, he is deceiving behind his smile

He plays trumpet. He is a senpai but still act childish. =D

Nah... He plays piano. Somehow, i hope i can have a boyfriend like him. =p. he can cook and an expert in soccer. His skill in piano is extraordinary. =D. kyaaaaaaa....

I love this guy. He plays violin. Kinda cool and very rude sometimes, but he has a gentle heart. Usually this type of man can't express his feeling easily. I heart him. =P

Taraaa... this is the main character! She plays violin, too, but she is an amateur. She can play just because she has the magic violin. Anyways, maybe in the end, she can play by herself. =D. I envy her anyway. surrounded by those handsome guyss.. >.<

Well, after watching this, i suddenly miss playing piano. I have graduated anyways, and stop the piano tuition. I don't want to continue it already. It's true that i play the pop song, but i miss the classic. =(. I regret for not practicing properly at that time. ='(. Aaaaaaaa... i want to play like them so badly. Hikss...
Somehow, i wish i can master a lot of musical instruments. I can play piano, glockenspiel, harmonica. I wish in the future time, i can learn how to play the violin, guitar, and flute. maybe i will take clarinet course too. =D. Haa.. hope i can accomplish my dream ><


Blessings,
NANA

Teenage Dream

Hello people! how's your Monday...??  it's weird actually to update my blog at this time... hmm.. usually i did it at night.
anyways, i just had a very extraordinary dream last night and i wish that it will come true. maybe it is a sign? :p
I dreamed that i met 2 different young man at BIOLA (well, this is my uni in the future). They helped me and protected me.(thisisovereactingbutitistrue) They are willing to do anything for me and when i looked into their eyes, I saw pure love (dontlaughisaidagainthisisjustadream)
hmmm.. seems like I watched too much drama or movie? but it is impossible, i think because i didn't watch romantic movie recently.

Weird.. maybe i have too much imagination..? somehow, i wish i can meet them. hoping.. hoping hoping.. =D

went to doctor and got injected.. T.T more painful this time *sigh

waiting for that time =)

Blessings
NANA

Happy bday Granny =D

It's1st of MAY! hohohoho... So, today is my grandma's bday.. had lunch @ duck king and after that we went to her house to take pictures with the cake =P. It was at night though.. 

Ate so much today.. >.<. Can't control myself because the cake was so delicious.. 

Some photos hereeeeee.... =D

just a small part of the family.. err... sorry for my look =p

                                                      

   

cute Keidy =DDD. Gonna be 1 this June.. ;)

happy family.. =D

Blessings,

NANA