Busy November

Well, looks like I didn't write for almost 2 months. Yeah, I'm kind of busy because of exams and preparation for my university. I'm so glad that I have taken my TOEFL test and I'm so much relieved. Thanks God the test is not so difficult. I hope I can get 100 this time. I know it seems impossible, but I believe and have faith in God.
So, i thought that I can have a relaxing November because monthly exams have passed. Unfortunately, November is not the right time. I have 2 concerts to go. Chamber choir and Elementary school choir. I supposed to be very excited, considering this is my first concert. but, i don't know why they bring a lot of burden. I'm so unhappy, and ... I hate it. there is also my parents' silver wedding anniversary. You see?!?!? too many event in November. Why oh why they all are due in this month? I must take HSK exam too and Biola's application deadline is on November 15. I still haven't write my essay. I'm so screwed. I don't know how I can handle this anymore.No one helps me. Nobody cares. All by myself.
i'm too tired..
I want to stay at home
I wanna have my own time at home

I just want to ...
:(

Love,
Nata