Sophomore YEAR

Hi guys! it has been a long long time for not posting! maybe for 4 months? i guess i can skip telling the story of my summer break. It was not really productive and interesting anyway. So, let's just start from my beginning of my sophomore year! oh my gosh can't believe that i'm a S O P H O M O R E right now. One year has passed in the blink of eyes and now i'm in my second year at BIOLA. =).

School started exactly 5 days ago, but i have been on campus almost 2 weeks ago. I helped with the international student orientation actually. It was quite awesome to meet a lot of new people from different countries. I was a bit uncomfortable with helping them on the first hand because I was a shy person. It was hard for me to connect with them. But thank God, i tried to get out from my comfort zone and tried to help them as hard as I can. Finally, everything was getting easier! =). Maybe in the beginning, i regret coming here early, but not now. I was thankful for that cause i got the wonderful experience that i could only get once in a lifetime. God wanted me to learn something from here. It was not to think about myself, not to be self-centered, but to think about others.

After the orientation, school started! This week was a crazy week for me, i guessed. After not studying for whole 3 months, i felt dizzy even after reading the syllabus! can't believe that! now i know why people said that being a freshman is the best. when you entered your second year, things will be different and yeah, i felt that too. The classes are A LOT MORE harder that last year. So much projects and papers! i also have 34 fieldwork hours in elementary school. >.< Aaaaaaaa... i could not think of anything after i realized that.

But then, in the time when i was so desperate, S reminded me that i should not depend on myself. YES! That's it! That is the answer! I was so suprised by that statement. all this time, i think that i can't do it this year. I'm gonna lose. I depend on myself. I forget how i get through all my classed last year. It was God who helped me. Without Him, i could not make it to second year. Well, i guess, i need to always remember that God is the source of my strength. I needed to always depend on Him..

I hope this post can encourage you guys who are in the midst of difficulty in your classes. Sometimes, you feel that you can't finish the project on time, you can't do your work well enough, you feel that you want to surrender. However, remember that you will absolutely can't do everything when you depend on your own strength. We are human. we are not perfect and we are weak. Depend on God. God is strong. God is infallible. He will certainly help us to get through everything. =)

Have a blessed Sunday, readers..  Remember, God loves you!

Blessings,
NANA

Flame

The weather is too hot, too too hot, help me =(. i'm going crazy. It makes me stressed, frustrated, and depressed. I think today is not a good day for me. Maybe you just can't understand at all. I don't like how you disrespect me.







Regards,
Natalia

The Way I Am

In the state of missing what i used to do in the past.. =). just came home after watching chamber rehearsing for the concert. I miss the busyness i had when I joined this choir. Quite regretful that i didn't use the time i had in the past to value the moment. =( well, now i was the one watching and it was quite fun. =D. i hoped that one day i can start singing again cause i believe that is what God wants me to do. If i fulfilled what God wants me to do, i believed i have worshipped Him. Worship isn't just about singing in the church, worship is doing what we are designed to do.

I also miss all my friends and somehow i miss the ones i used to be close to. =D.

Blessings,

NANA

To the FULLEST!

Hellowww, it's wednesday! =D. i was quite happy today cause i have been keeping myself busy starting from this morning. ;). Being really productive is my goal this summer. =D. so, here's my list for my today activity:
1. Going to aerobic class with mom
2. Go to the market
3. Have breakfast at home ( I have eaten "bubur sumsum" YAY! *checklist*)
4. watching Captain America (this is cool! more than what i expected ;) )
5. go to Cambridge (shopping with momma)
6. yoga
7. church =D
So happy that finally i can come back to sing in the choir. it has been one year. well, i hope that this summer i can learn something. i also want to bring myself closer to God. This summer really gives me a lot of temptations to stray away from Him. I hope He can bring me near to Him. I wanted to learn Him although i'm not in Biola. Trying to train myself ;D.

I hope you guys have a great day ahead! Remember to smile , cause you are beautiful when you smile =).


Blessings,
NANA

Cotton Candy!

Back in town! yuhuuuu... i'm so happy cause i can sleep on my own bed, can shower in my own bathroom, can play my piano, andddddd can eat my mom's cook food! XDDD. bad news is that my hometown is terribly hot.. :| I sweat a lot. but nvm, as long as i can enjoy my time here, nothing can make me grumble =D.

Soooo, right now i'm trying to register for online class this summer... i failed to register for the first session, and luckily, there is second session, thank God. *phew.wish me luck for that. if i did not register i think i might be bored with my holiday and with my brain unused. =.=". while i'm trying to apply, i try to be productive this holiday. taking yoga and fitness classes are one of the main activities. I also try to take piano courses. there are also some stuffs to be taken care of. I already cut my hair! =D. and i need to go to the doctor to check some things. i also need to go to the dentist to take care of my teeth. Hearing the word "dentist" really terrified me. Well, i don't have a good chemistry with that word. Growing up dealing with them traumatized me. T^T. now i need to do some operation again. *sigh.

anyway.. have a good summer break  minasamaaa... i might update my post more often since i did not have anything to do ;). Ciao!

 Do i look younger? =)

Blessings,

NANA

To LOVE?

howdy! how r u guys? i'm currently in Sg right now and still can't believe that i'm here with my dearest family. =). I arrived here two days ago and maybe i'm still having a lil bit jetlag, but i'm doing better, i think =D.

I have eaten lotso food since yesterday. dimsum, turtle soup, taiwanese food, bubble milk tea.. lol. heaven. but, the milk tea has a better taste back there, maybe i should try KOI? tomorrow maybe. and i want to have duck rice and chicken rice. something that i can't get in BIOLA. =p. ahh.. going to be a fattie lol. nvm. let's think about that later ;p.

Recently, i'm having trouble loving someone. well, it is not that kind of "love" i'm talking of. The love i'm talking about here is the love for others. To love someone you are irritated of, someone you dislike, someone you want to get away from, someone you hate, someone you don't even want to talk to... It's just hard to do that. i wonder how God did it for us. The question that i'm still asking until right now. God who loved us so much.. us, who are sinners; who had killed, who had betrayed, who had lied, who had done all the bad stuffs.. but He still loves us..

I just want to be like God, day by day... maybe it's not now.. cause i know i'm not perfect.. but I will try to love.. to love others.. i hope one day, i can love someone who doesn't deserve to be loved... will that day come??

Blessings,

NANA

FINALS!

apology for readers! from the last post i promised to write a "post" last week but.. =.='. seems like I really don't have the time to craft all my thoughts in one post. I really need time to write it cause i want it as encouragement. Since i had a bad writing.. well, basically, i need time. Maybe after finals? lol. PLUS, i need to pack all my things because i'm going home in 4 days =DDDD. so much to pack >.<. but i'm super duper excited. really can't wait for Friday.. mom, dad, i'm coming >.<

I supposed to study right now. =S. but i'm not into it.. =(((. Otoke? huhuhuhu





Blessings,
NANA