I'm Crying...

I'm crying... because there are so much pain in this world
I'm crying... because i have no one to talk to
I'm crying .. because i'm tired of being good
I'm crying... because I don't know what i should do
I'm crying... because the world is too cruel
I'm crying... because i expect too much from people
I'm crying.. because i can't show others my tear
I'm crying... because i can't find somebody i can rely on
I'm crying.. because there is nobody i can trust anymore
I'm crying... because nobody can help me
I'm crying... because nobody cares


I'm broken inside..
I fell down and i can't stand by myself right now..


Sincerely,
NANA



Blessings,
NANA

Consume

It's Tuesday, guys and i have finished my classes of the week. Thanks to Mission Conference ;P. I think tomorrow Biola is gonna be totally different. Many attractive things are placed in the campus. just now i saw an apple hanging on the tree and it was only one. I'm looking forward to this conference. =DDD

If you want to know more just click here

Anyway, these days have been very unproductive to me. I am getting lazier day by day and you know what? Midterm is coming. T.T. Oh my goodness... why oh why so soon?? Hope i can get through all of those things. You know what i mean- tons of paper, exams, worksheets, observation, etc. =.=

I think that's all for today. Gonna post some pictures later from mission conference.
Well, have a great day ahead folks! ;)

Blessings,
NANA

Down to the Soul

Just want to express my feeling for these days. I feel so sad recently although there are a lot of joy out there. There are so many thoughts lingered on my mind... and it is hard to be understood. Why? Why? and Why? I decided to write this thought and i hope you can understand...

I want you to know that i will always accept you for who you are. no matter what. I can't hate you cause you care for me. I can't abhore you even though you might hate me. I don't know why but you are a great friend for me. Please give me some time to adjust with the fact that humans are not flawless. I am not blaming you or avoiding you, but i need time. When the time has came, remember, i will accept you for who you are. Just... be patient. I don't know if you need me or not, but i will always be there for you when you have no one to talk to. I hope you understand. That's all i can say.


Sincerely,
NANA

One Picture of God's Grace

I feel like writing a new post today.. So random. Well, maybe i should write more often since the busy week ends today. =D. I'm so happy. everything back to normal and i can sit back and relax for a while. Anyway, i will post some pictures from last week. Since we are so stressed with the exams and paper, my friends and I went to have fun for 3 days. LOL. But it's a relief that we can go there and have our togetherness. Well, i guess God's grace once again is more than enough =). So, this is just a few pictures of us and i wanted to introduce them officially..

Panera bread started our day =D. Trust me, this is the most delicious and healthy lunch ;) esp for girlss

in the car.. brooom broomm

with Sharon <3

The Fives ( we named ourselves that ) ;)

With Olivia! my lebayest fren =p

We were waiting in line for Hollywood Terror Tower (the line was too long that we did not have anything to do besides taking pic)

Here it is!

Having Churos together with Alicia!!! =D the most mature friend i have ;D

Failed as barbies and ..  (i don't know nate wanted to be what) LOL

This is California Screaming. Taking pic before we went screaming together. Planned to take it again next time. =p

Disney's wheel during night time..

The last ride =p

The newest pic I took =p. I rarely took pic recently =(.

 Well, they all are my best friends here and i really thanked God that i can meet them. Sharon, Olivia, Alicia and Nate. They are gifts from God to me. =)

Have a great weekend guys! =) 


Blessings,
NANA

More than Enough

It's March, folks! I think my last post is one month ago. I know.. I'm so lazy to update nowadays. Anyway, one month has passed! How's your February? =). I think i had a really great time studying here. This semester is really different than the last. Although this semester is way too arduous, I can see how God works in my life. Taking 18 credits (full credits) is not easy. I will not get through this one month if not God is the one that help me. His grace is just more than enough. =)

Anyway, i just finished my week of exams. This week is extremely busy to me. Three exams, four papers. I will have two exam again next week and 3 papers? *sigh* I just don't have enough time to rest for a while. Everything is in rush. =|. But I'm glad that God is there for me. I don't know what will happen if I don't surrender everything in Him. Maybe i will get kicked out? Failed? Terrible.. =.="

Well, i'm still thankful though that i can rest for a while =DDD. so happpyy! Wait a second. I got some tips  on how to enjoy your studies!
1. Studying = glorifying God
You are using your mind to think. That means you have done God's purpose to create you! Try encourage yourself that it can bring joy to Daddy's heart.
2. Studying doesn't mean you must achieve A
Well, try to enjoy your studies by not striving to have an excellent grade. Come on.. If you got an A, but in the end you don't learn anything, what's the point? studying means learning things that bring benefit into your life! It's important for your future. It is not about getting an A. Try your best to do everything. BUT it does not mean that you can sit back and slack off. Remember that studying is glorifying God. Slacking off means you are not doing what God wants you to do. Oops.. too long for this NEXT!
3. You can do it because God gives you the wisdom
Remember that whenever you understand and do well on the test, it is God's grace! Ask God when you have trouble understanding. God will help you. Trust Him. ;)

The last thing i can say is that don't forget to thank God that you can study. Notice that studying is a grace, too. There are many people who don't have the chance to do what you do. So, don't take it for granted. enjoy while it lasts! =D.

Those tips are from my experiences anyway.. Hope it helps =).

Blessings,
NANA

Maccabees

Holaaa... random post random time. I'm back here.. Again.. =.=". Classes started one week again and today is my second week. One week seems like a year to me. As i landed here, i wanted to go home. Well, i guess i can't get over it. Lol. I just love to be where my family are. I think everyone desires that! Well, anyway, it is only for 4 months. I just need to be patient.

Here is the brief summary about the classes. I want to share a lil bit what is it look like to have classes in BIOLA. ;). I just LoooooOOOOVveeee love love love them so much. I took:
1. Foundations of Christian Thought
2. Intro to New Testament
3. Child Development
4. Biology - Lecture
5. Biology - Lab.
6. Music Appreciation
7. Tennis
The first three classes should be the hardest. They are going to be big OBSTACLE to me this spring. But, they all are interesting! Fun, but not easy. One interesting fact i found recently is in my title. There is an additional book besides Old Testament and that's the name! =DDD. It is soo intriguing.
Well, i really need to work hard and at the same time have fun! ;)

This past week, i read this verse several time, coincidentally..
John 14: 27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.


I was really frustrated these days.. not only because of assignments, but also because of my struggling, friends, and my health. I just can't feel peace at all. I really need someone whom i can talk to here. So hard to tell anybody. Therefore, this verse helped a lot, and i thank God for comforting me with it. 


Have a great day ahead, folks! =)


Blessings,
NANA

Officially 1 week

Howday! Time to post something today. Honestly, i'm kinda lazy to do it =.=', but i am so bored. Medan. You know why. I arrived here 2 weeks ago. I was so happy to meet everyone! =DD. I missed them so much and now i got to see them. furthermore, i can see my rabbits.. They are so lovely. My Kuro has babies again and they all are so cute. i always spend time with those kits and i can stop by and see them for more than half an hour. I treated them like my child now. =D. I'm going to upload their photos later. not now.

So, Chinese New Year is coming. Im so so so so excited. Going to meet everyone and of course..hihihihi... you know what i mean. I have bought 3 dresses for this time and i think it is enough. Although i want to buy more, but you know.. i'm getting fat. So, I will buy more when i am slimmer. *ehem*. i spend my holiday doing yoga and jogging. I try to control myself to eat what is healthy as my resolution for this year is having a healthy life. =D. Hope i can accomplish it.

Anyway, i'm going home next week. Half excited and half sad, but i know i am going there only for study. four months only. With God who will always there for me, i fear not. I'm going to survive! I'm going to bear and endure this! Go Go GOOOOOO!

I think that's all. =D. Sayonara..
Have a wonderful Chinese New Year, guyS!! Gong xi Gong Xiii ;D


Blessings,
NANA