An Answer

I'm struggling for almost a week, about the choices that i must pick. I pray and pray and pray,seeking for answer. I asked my close friends, which should i choose, but then, in the end, everything must be decided by me. It's my life and it is not theirs. That's why it brought a great distress to me. you know, if I pick the wrong choice, there is no coming back. Yep. *sigh. Thankfully, today, i have found the answer and I pray a lot for this one. I just want God to guide me and hope everything will be alright. I surrender all to HIM. :)

anyways, just received the schedule for additional lesson at school and it kinda kills me. Oh my gosh.. start from february 7th to April, i'm going to go to school from morning to evening ! X(. Shiok ! initially, i want to start my harp lesson and drawing lesson, but due to this schedule, i canceled it all ! aiyo... =.='
hope that i can pass the national exam by joining this... amen2.. :)


Yosh, still waiting for the news from the BIOLA :D wishmeluck!\


Blessings,
NANA

puppies

These are some pictures of dogs that i really want :DD

1. Daschund long hair

 I found this dog while i was visiting one mall in Japan that allowed the owner to bring their pets, and the petshop was sooo sooo sooo HUGE. There is a small clinic, saloon, and place to adopt or buy dog. Oh my. Wish there is one in Medan. I really like this dog. When i saw her, i fall in love with her. sadly, i can't take her home. :'(

2. Sheltie

Beautiful, isn't it? Saw one in Medan last year, but didn't buy it. :(. Hopefully daddy allows me! :DD

FYI, this is not lassie. maybe it looks similar, but lassie's type is rough collie and not sheltie.

3. Samoyed

and the last oneeeee, eng ing eng! *nosebleeding. She is so kawaiiiiiii... >.<. I think "snow princess" suite her perfectly. But this dog kinda rare, need to buy at Jakarta. *sigh. 

Hope that one of my wishes come true. :D

Blessings,

NANA

Struggle

Crying again... 

Sometimes i hate myself for keep thinking about those things that will never come back

 i feel much better now, the lump is gone... :)

I realize that it is so hard to change myself, to become different, and to reflect the image oF Jesus in my life. 

but, God will never give us problems that go beyond our strength, right?

Blessings,

NANA

Rainbow

If you looked (inside) a girl,

you would see how much she really cries, 

you would find so many secrets and lots of lies,

but what you'll see 

the most 

is

how hard it is to stay strong

when nothing is right 

and everything is wrong...

Got a bad day today, don't know why I was being so moody. 
I just don't know what to do anymore. :')

My heart ache so much, that i think i can't do this.

Do you know how difficult it is to pretend? acting like everything is okay? (:(
It is so hard to move on..

people can said " MOVE ON!"

but honestly, it is not as easy as it is told...

IsmiledIlaughedIcried.

but, i believe, i can get through this because God promise me, He will guide me and be beside me. one day, he will show me a rainbow, after the rain. maybe i can't see it now, but i will... 

with love,

Nana

Heart vs Mind

Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together

Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other

Must be strong,
And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments

Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How can I not love you..
When you are you gone.....

*just received a reply from BIOLA today.. mine are still being reviewed. Hope for the best! :)
 他像往常一樣說謊，它是如此他...
 我喜歡你的謊言，這讓我微笑 :)

Blessings,

NANA 

Anxiety

Being anxious is not good, i know. but, I'm still waiting for the news. I can't concentrate at everything. What i do everyday are checking my mail, opening the mailbox, contacting the admission and counsellor to ask why i haven't received any letter. Sigh.. it is like there is a big burden on my shoulder. My heart always pound, afraid that i won't be accepted at that school. I wonder when can i receive the news? I know I should have faith, and surrender everything to God, but I need to prepare. I don't have plan B or plan C. I just applied only for BIOLA because it is my dream school and i won't get something from there in another school. I hope everything will be alright. All i can do is surrender everything, calm myself, and keep praying.


Wish me luck guys!

Blessings,
Nata

Everything to Me

listened to this song. typically me...

I grew up in Sunday school, I memorized the Golden Rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out, and I can tell you all about the path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me, and I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same because He changed my life when He became...

Everything to me 

He's more than a story 

More than words on a page of history
He is the air that I breathe, the water I thirst for 

And the ground beneath my feet
Oh He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware of just how fragile life can be
I wanna tell the world I've found, a love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm prayin'  just to give my heart away

I wanna live for Jesus, so that someone else might see that He is...
 

Everything to me 

He's more than a story 

More than words on a page of history
He is the air that I breathe, the water I thirst for 

 And the ground beneath my feet
Oh He's everything, everything to me

And lookin' back over my life at the end, (I'll go to meet You) I'll go to meet You, sayin You've been..

Everything to me
More than a story
More than words on a page of history

Everything to me 

He's more than a story 

More than words on a page of history
He is the air that I breathe, the water I thirst for 

And the ground beneath my feet

You're everything

Lord You're everything to me, Jesus

Everything, You're the water I thirst for
You're everything to me, Jesus, oh
Everything, You're the water I thirst for
The air I breathe, the song I sing, oh
Everything to me, everything to me
You're my life, my love, everything

Happy Monday yall! :)

Blessings,

NANA